thank you for reading.


12.25.2009

ate too much chocolate cake (puke)


I WATCHED PORN THAT MORNING
EACH ONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS HELD BABY JESUS LAST NIGHT
.
WE HAD TO SAY THANKS OR ASK FOR SOMETHING
(I KNOW, RIGHT?).
I HELD BABY JESUS AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
I BLUSHED.
MY COUSIN WAS RECORDING IT.
I SAID "I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY" OUT LOUD.
MY COUSIN SAID "SAY YOU WANT TO WIN LOTS OF SCHOLARSHIPS."
I SAID "GOOD IDEA" AND I DID THAT
AND FELT LIKE SHIT.
I'M A BAD BAD CATHOLIC
BUT I'M NOT A TERRIBLE PERSON.
LET'S VANISH. WHO WANTS TO VANISH WITH ME?
DON'T MAKE ME SAY THINGS TO BABY JESUS.

12.23.2009

2 hours, 23 minutes remaining



JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA
PORN

UNLIT, UNHEATED [DECEMBER]

12.20.2009

intensely interested (but repressing it)

whenever i see you
it feels like birds are flying
in and out of my face

my head is ghost-like and birds fly
through it
i want to hold the birds inside
my head and turn them into
sex maniacs

12.18.2009

you don't need to shave because i like you

vacations are good. i'm wearing 3 hoodies because i'm cold.

new poem @spoken war

and two mp3s


12.15.2009

i'm going to french kiss you (mexican style)

you need to come to my house because i need to feed you

i'm going to french kiss you mexican style
whatever that means

i'm going to make you french toast
i mean it's like french toast but it's already made
you just put it in the toaster
and i don't know it's just bread
but it's sweet and i'm addicted and i want you
to be addicted to it also

what's the square root of 169
whip me
and i'll tell you

it's thirteen

i need you to get this
fucking eyelash out of my eye
hold my eyelid
and blow

12.13.2009

a u d i o.

they control me

12.08.2009

i'm wearing a beanie because i feel lonely (i feel lonely because i'm cold)

i want to remove my contact lenses and close my eyes and sleep for days. i want to wake up and be able to see without having to put them back on. that's not going to happen.

one day i went to bed and forgot to remove my contact lenses. when i woke up i was able to see everything. i didn't realize i was able to see until i walked to the bathroom. i opened my contact lenses container and saw it was empty.

i saw it was empty so i took them off and washed them and put them back on.

my eyes wear beanies all the time. my eyes are lonely without my beanies because i can't see shit without them. please don't take my beanies away from me. i'm scared without them.